Told my counsellor about wanting to push for a formal diagnosis, primarily b/c I want to explain my brain to my dad w/o feeling scared. It's not as if BPD is my entire essence, and in the first place I can't be a judge of character regarding whether or not I fit the diagnosis, but I think he'd be less inclined to say "it's all in your head," if I had, well, any sort of diagnosis backing me up. Maybe I could feel like we're on the same page again? In my book?

Still haven't formally started DBT, but I was sent off w/ a diary card; I can't fill in the boxes about "skills applied" b/c, well, I haven't learned them yet, so for now I'm just chronicling emotions I have in conjunction w/ rating my emotions/urges. Feels, structured, organized; also it gave me an excuse to pull out my diary again, my counsellor said it was okay so long as it followed the card format. So that's that.