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Old Mar 25, 2017, 08:27 PM
slowandgentle slowandgentle is offline
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Originally Posted by Merecat View Post
Are you sure he received the anniversary email? I've had times where I've either sent or been sent something and it's gone missing or into a spam folder etc, even when other stuff to or from the same address was ok. If he usually would reply and now he doesn't, and you have examples of that I would have spoken to him about it before deciding to leave a process that has been working well for me.

You spoke of stuffing the hurt down to try and retain what kindness you can get from him bit therapy is exactly the place to try not doing that, to be open and clear about what you need and what you see has changed. I very much doubt you've broken either of your therapists but difficult interactions can leave you feeling you've done something wrong. I wonder if either he's not receiving your emails or if something is happening in his personal life that is taking time and emotion away from him work.

You're well within your rights to walk away if that's what you feel is right for you but I know I'd try to speak to him beforehand in case wires were crossed.
*Trigger warning*

I don't think him not receiving the email is what's going on. I made the mistake of telling him I wanted to be held by him, at the end of last year. Then I started having these intrusive images of me...'servicing' him. Best way I can think of to put it. He decided that we were too close for me, and that the images meant I felt violated by him. I think he is deliberately creating distance. Which I could handle if we had regular sessions, but I haven't seen him for a month & my email said really clearly I was struggling and conflicted and reaching out to try to reconnect. I am so afraid of being too much and demanding too much, I don't think I can push about the emails. I feel like I have done nothing but raise isssues with him for the past 6 mths.