So where I live we don't really have a great mental health care system, and we only have a few private therapists that I definitely cannot afford. So I'm stuck with the public health therapists. I really like the girl I'm talking to, she's really nice I just find it's so hard to open up completely to her. My town is really small and I'm scared to open up and then see her in public, even though she isn't allowed to interact with me in public unless I initiate it. During our sessions I get SO NERVOUS and I'm shaking and I rip up pieces of paper to try and calm myself down and I'm sweaty and my voice is shaky. Also, I'm a psych student and I know a lot about therapy so it's hard to get any help from her when I already know a lot of the stuff. At this point I've built up such huge walls around my emotions and feelings that I find it hard to show "weakness" during my sessions, even though that's the best place for things like that to happen. I suffer from anxiety, depression, OCD (still finalizing the diagnosis) and likely an eating disorder, and it's hard to continue when I already know the tactics she'll use to help me. I can't break away from my practical, student-like point of view to be able to really get much out of my sessions. And maybe I'm too impatient with my therapist (I've only been there about 5 times). Does anyone have any advice on how to overcome this fear of my own therapist? I can't afford to try a new therapist, and I really do like her I just haven't been able to open up.