Aye - and pretending doesn't lead to a big blowout that upsets the system for days on end. THough - I tend to have both - the blowout before hand when the changes I work at implementing get shot out of the water, and then the pretending on the day itself to just get it over with. Which means i need to plan now for xmas on getting out of the damn state.... but it never works. maybe i can find a friend's house and lay low. But al i really want is MY bed and just sleep through the whole thing. I'm like the two headed monster from Sesamie Street - can't make up my mind; prepare for the holidays and also try to avoid them and wonder why i'm still stuck.