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Originally Posted by velcro003
You still seem stuck on this money issue, is this part of it? $100 for a therapy session out of pocket is actually not expensive in the therapy world. If you can afford it, I am not sure what hte problem is?
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I can afford it but I don't like spending it. I feel like I'm buying friendship right now. I hate having thoughts like that! I have other friends but they are too busy to listen to me as much as I need. So I still need T but it seems a lot to pay for someone to just "be there" for me. I think I have to talk to T about feeling depressed about my life.
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Originally Posted by feileacan
Maybe do completely the opposite? Not to do any list and plan what you want to work on but rather try to give up control and just follow your feelings and thoughts in the session? They could lead you to places that you wouldn't even know to plan to go to.
Could it be that perhaps you have covered all the surface stuff that you could consciously think of and are now ready to go deeper?
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I doubt it. I've seen my T for 7 years and we've gone pretty deep. Many sessions have been without a plan. I've been spending too much of my session talking about physical pain lately. I have to stop doing that.
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Originally Posted by granite1
rain i dont get the money thing was it not you who offered to pay your T more saying she was worth more and that now you can afford to pay more .i think it is kind of unfair to you T to offer this and then you seem to judge her for accepting it .
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I'm not judging her for accepting it. I'm judging myself for not having a better attitude about it. I judge myself because I never earned much money in my life even with a Master's degree which is more than T has. I'm bitter. I know. I have to let the past go. Usually I feel like I get more from my sessions. I'm just going through a rough time now.