And I want to add that some of the successes I have had were only because of the help given to me by others. And when it comes to some of my shortcomings, I don't talk about all of them here--there are some that I am deeply ashamed of. So the fact that you are searching within yourself and trying to change is something that I really like about you. Sometimes we have to sort of give ourselves a "pep talk" prior to taking action. Eventually you will land another job, meet a friend, etc., I just know it. When we have one success, it can build us up and "cure" our depression. From my POV, you are still very young....