Another bad day.
Was upset earlier, but now I'm just angry.
So angry about nobody in this house appreciating anything i do, respecting what i say, helping me out except one day a week when a bit of tidying and floor cleaning happens while I'm at work. Having no financial support from my lazy selfish husband for the last 6 years! Having no consideration or understanding of anything i say. No respect for my opinions if they are not what someone wants to hear.

Today is mother's day in the UK, i don't make a big fuss of it, but today is just the same as all the other days. Being a housekeeper and servant.

Yesterday after work my (self absorbed) boss asked if i wanted to go to the pub, she said later on, but then changed her mind to right away. She was only inviting me i suspect because there was a 'hot guy' (one of god knows how many she talks about, who fancy her, want to sleep with her, most have girlfriends etc) there and she wanted an excuse to go over. Just using me.
Then he said something to her about me when we were leaving that i didn't hear, but she looked over at me laughing, so i asked, what? I don't mind a joke. But she just said, oh nothing.
I was already self conscious enough about being there, but try and ignore it or I'll never do anything.

Now husband's gone out to the field. A field he is spending time money and effort to piss about with, clear ground, when there's so much work needs doing in this house is beyond a joke that he does nothing.
He wants to sell our house and live in the ****ing field, without the right planning applications, which will of course lead to a fight with the council, which he is well up for.
I DON'T want to go live in this field. I DON'T to sell our house unless there's a solid plan to live somewhere sensible.
But what i think about this is irrelevant. He wants to do it no matter what. Whether i want to or not.

I've got so angry I've emptied a cupboard all over my kitchen because I'm sick of it being full of crap with him saying, i meant to do that today.

I've had it with being here, in this house, with these people, married to that man.