I've been feeling really depressed. I've also been violent, as the depression causes me to have a short fuse.

Yesterday afternoon, I tried to smash my laptop because it was loading too slowly, but fortunately, I only made a (rather large) dent in the lid. Otherwise, no harm.

I also tried to crush my phone with my hands and I threw it against a wall. I was making audible "ugggghhh" sounds out of rage.

I haven't had a rage like this since November 2016. I really want to stop these depressive rages. They make me feel so guilty, and the guilt just feeds the depression.