I feel for you,used to be the same;then I started to read and
reeducate self,so I strongly recommend you get hold of a
book by Nathaniel Branden,called: "The Six Pillars Of Self-
Esteem". You MUST do things like this or YOU will be the one who is betraying yourself. Also look for books on Self-
Assertiveness (this will help to cope with family), or/and
sever contact with those who are particularly toxic. I have
2brothers+one sister I have cut all ties with because of
their talk and betrayal and insanity. Keep telling self,"I am
worth it,I am worth it". When I look back,I see how little I
knew about other people and their behavior,so I was very
confused,no self-esteem,no self-respect.What I thought
was weakness,was in fact,lack of knowledge of how to deal
with the world. If you have any further questions,or need
more info,do not hesitate to message me.
Deepest Respect,
BLUEDOVE