Ok, everyone says dissociation helps them survive but it doesn`t help me! It makes daily life
extremely difficult for me because.. it`s like my brain absolutely doesn`t work!.. When something
bad happens associated with rejection betrayal etc.from people close to me at the moment it`s like
all the trauma from my childhood comes here and now and I can`t differentiate past from present
anymore. I litteraly can`t think, and speak.. I don`t have any attention on anything.. any working
memory.. because I become the child I was then!!! It`s like I look but I don`t see a thing!.. I don`t
understand.. I don`t sens nothing! It`s like something broke in my mind and there is no.. continuity
and integrity anymore. There are only casual pictures that come to my mind, could be from the good
times as well, not connected and with no emotion no understanding no meaning.. Is this something
more that dissociation that comes after it as the traumatic events deepen?..