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Old Mar 26, 2017, 12:31 PM
leejosepho leejosepho is offline
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Originally Posted by Mr. Stranger View Post
I do think because I cannot imagine better future and outcome and that's why I cannot do it. I see only failures in my attempts, and this sets the fear that either prevents me from trying or sabotages my trying.
I would say about the same. I can sit here and think of things or see other people doing things I would like to do, but then all the reasons I believe the outcomes would be failures or at least some degree of dismal keep me in my chair. An example would be related to my sidecar rig. Spring has sprung and I can hear other riders on the streets outside, but I already know my only shot at riding along with anyone is to do funeral rides as a Patriot Guard Rider...and I actually do enjoy doing that, but now I can no longer handle most of the distances required for doing so. And so, about the best I can get out of riding today are the looks and waves I get from people in passing cars when they see the novelty of an old man out on a strange-looking sidecar rig.
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