Ok yeah that my gutt feeling too.

I trust my key worler but not my therapist.
Here why. I know its long but I really appreciate your veiw. Im kinda at lost.

need your veiw upon this.
I told my student therapist that I feel I love you.
He then said "You don't know me,you know-" I said I know I read it some where clients.project on therapist what they don't know. Im thinking phew! I save myself.
Then he said how my partner is supportive which is true then he said "I wouldn't have patience like your partner. I wouldn't have patience like I would have for my wife"
I feel hurt by that comment because I feel "Oh so no one has patience for me and no one likes me as a person or a friend"?
It bothered me so much that I cut myself with a butter knife.
Also I had killing thoughts because my sister rang my keyworker behind my back a couple weeks ago and told him Im passive aggressive and that they sold the wrong stort about the shower situation. The shower situation was my mum that turn off the water because she wanted a shower. That when it started and well what my therapist said didn't help either. Just triggered it even more.

I told him how my friend thought my therapist looked like my dad. Because of the transference. So we found a photo of.my therapist on Facebook and a photo of my dad to compare the two.
From there on whenever my mum or sister upsetted me or I felted like killing myself I looked at the photo of my therapist and I feel happy and cared. I wrote.it down and let him read it and I could see his shoulders where intense and swallowed hard.
He asked whats wrong feeling happy or cared for?
I said I thought it was bad. I don't think its healthy you know looking at photo.

He seemed ok by it. But me being curious I had to see did he block me.on Facebook? Well he just changed his name. I felted.offended though my partner said well imagine this say you taught Asians English and they constantly message you for help at the weekend but you wanted to have the weekend to yourself.
I realised that be annoying and I would just make my Facebook account pirvate.
Now.I.never message my therapist lets be clear.
But as my partner said "he just realised that clients and people can look him up" Im like "yeah he kinda...dumb. I mean if I went to study as a doctor or psychologist I would know to put my Facebook account private, its.not rocket science" my partner said because I look up and search on transference and my student therapist is still learning. He said I probably know more than he would in a years time. He says my therapist sounds dumb and Im more intellectual than he is. That why Im frustrated at him because he can't keep up. It took him the whole.of last year that my thoughts bother me. Or when I said I have long distance blood related cousin of Captain Scott who went down the south pole and he had a crew.memeber named Edward Wilison who Im related too. Then my therapist said "Oh...that why they call it Scott Base" and Im thinking ah.... How can you not know this? Its obvious.
Or when he said he be away for a few weeks because he going to Hawaii. Now from.New Zealand to.Hawaii is a long flight its a 12 hour flight. I told him this that be long flight thats like 12 hours. And he was like it is? Im thinking omg! This guy!
Other time he said he was.going to leave to build apartments and I know council here.in New.Zealand take forever of anything to approve. It take a year! And then sessions later he tells me this. I knew it already. I was thinking really! You just picked this up now?