I didn't get out of bed until 4 pm! I feel physically and mentally like absolute shiit. I am contemplating leaving the house to forage for something to eat as it is 6 pm and I am starving. I have not gotten very far yet.

I have accomplished absolutely nothing this whole weekend. I Feel like a ****iing failure at life right now. I don't know how I am going to make it to work this week. I have a bunch of work to do and I can barely even function. While I have no intention of doing anything, the urge to cut out of here early is strong. I don't know what to do to crawl out of this hole.

I am considering fxcking around with my sleep in an attempt to get rid of this depression. In the past, not sleeping at all for a day or two sometimes kicks my mood go up a lot temporarily. Idk if I can actually follow thru in this state of exhaustion or if it will work but it seems worth a shot. It's probably a really stupid idea but I don't even see my pdoc for a week & 1/2.

Anyway, I am busy having a day.
Take care all.