A little over a year ago I was hospitalized for “depression with psychotic features.” I was extremely suicidal and not coping well with life. The facility was completely locked—there was no coming and going. For the most part, it was a good experience. Well, as good as circumstances would permit. Sure the food was bad, roommates annoying and I absolutely hated recreational therapy, but it was a safe place for me to go ahead and have my melt down. I had been fighting for so long to keep myself together and alive that it was a relief to finally be someplace safe. It was a turning point in my illness. Since then, I have been getting better. If I ever get that sick again, I would want my pdoc to put me back in the hospital. I trust him to make that decision for me…talk with your pdoc. Hospitalization is not a magical cure, but if you are concerned about your safety then maybe it is the right thing for you.