we know that you'll keep getting better EV. it is hard to keep faith when facing such difficult issues in therapy. you'll find there is a rhythm to therapy when you've found someone good to work w/. by that meaning a good fit for you...not what anyone else thinks.

it can be awfully scary to tally up the years we've spent in and out of therapy. yet we're so grateful we've stuck w/ it over time. we've done much important work w/ many different therapists. one size did not fit all for sure!

sorry it is rough right now. we do know that you're going to keep working on this and someday (hopefully sooner than later) you'll be able to clearly see how much work you've accomplished and how far you've come.