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Originally Posted by Trace14
You are right that unless they have walked in your shoes that no one will understand your pain. So focusing on the fact that they don't understand us is kind of self defeating thought process. Now, they can try to understand, listen without judgement and support us, that they can do. But are they that type of people? Are the capable of doing that? Some are not, just not in their make up. Being alone is a lot our choice, ya know. It's a defense to keep people at a distance so they can't hurt us as badly. Though as you have seen they can still hurt , even from a distance. So what would be a solution? Keeping them out of your life completely? Have them come to a counseling session with you, maybe have a group talk? Just my opinion but I think the people that hurt us are the ones we care about most. taking them out of our lives is not what I would want to do. Let's brain storm here....what are the options?
Are you on depression medications? Do you have a safety plan? I posted something on here about a safety plan and from what I understand if you google it there's lots of different ones to go by. Have the number for the crisis line close by? You know we have a bond with you and we are always here for you, always.  |
As much as I try to get past it, I really do feel alone. You know, if my guys were behind me and we went through the **** together; what I went through, they understand through and through because they were standing with me. Granted, I'm glad no one had to suffer with me in this one situation and several others, as they're their own types of hell. With the people in my life, I have some real good ones and I love them and they do try. Truth is, they can't help -- they do in their own different ways with different things -- but they try. How can they help if I don't even know how they're supposed to?
No antidepressants here and will never touch them again after my experiences. I'm dealing with my safety plan currently and I keep a hotline saved in my phone. I'm not a fan of either but I'm dealing with them. I'll be surprised if it works enough to get me through the next week.
I'm a little pessimistic right now, if I'm being honest. I've had a really hard day and it's not even close to over. Some people don't know where my head's at and that's not their fault but I've overextended myself today for the people I love. I'm worn down even more than when I first created this thread. Nothing I do seems to be enough and yet, it's all I have.