(((hugs))). I can relate and have felt that way before. Sometimes everything gets way too frustrating. Keep posting if you feel any relief from just venting, even if it's just a little bit. Sometimes that can help alleviate some of the pain, although of course the pain is still there. Any kind of outlet is definitely important. If you need to cry and let it out, that's natural. Please don't give up on yourself! Continue to take care of yourself. Intense feelings do pass, even though it takes time.