I've been thinking about this for a while, have not told her and probably wont until I make my mind and leave the friendship. She probably
thinks nothing is wrong at all.

Alright so she helped me at the beginning and have known her for 11 years through work, she found out I was thinking of not being around
anymore back in late August, helped me to the docs and had the best day of my life with her and been friends since. We last hung out
December 15th of last year, we hung out a few times before then aswell. Had 3 coffees, 1 dinner, 1 concert, 2 Doctor visits together
been trying to hang out with her since Dec but she never gives me the time of day anymore.

We text 1-2 times a week as a way to keep in touch, just for a minute or 2. She never calls me on her own? only way to talk to her on
the phone is if i text her if she wants to talk on the phone, then she text me she will after work (we got conflicting work schedules)
or if she's on a day off she calls me in the morning and we talk for 30-40 minutes once a month since i have problems with phoning
people thinking they will be annoyed if i phone them often. She hates when i dissapear from her life for a while, or if i try and take
a break and tell her i'll message her down the road.

I recently went crazy and had to book 5 weeks off work and i'm on my last week off, she agreed to hang out once again and backed out
because her daughters (18 years old) dance competition and her sister visiting, but it's literally impossible to have a coffee or a lunch
for 1 hour with her, it's been over 3 months! and once again she agreed to hang out! I was really looking forward to hanging out with her
a few times during the 5 weeks off work, i never see her anymore unless i go to her work, and i told her i only go to her work to see her
for some hangtime, she is a waitress. I dunno what to do anymore, i feel stuck...she text me we will talk soon so all i text i'll message
her in a few weeks, she told me we will talk before then but i know we wont because she only messages me if i message her.

I mean i'm not even worth 1 hour a month to her! it's kinda hard to feel like we are friends. It seems pretty obvious to me she's
not looking for a friendship, just to have someone to casually text even though she hates texting but she said twice to me to call or text her
anytime i want. When we talk we normally talk about her, but she's told me she wants me to be a compassionate person
and love everyone with no judgement (she's really spiritual).

She wants to have coffee with other guys at her old job but she said with me first because i'm pretty much the only one that
really stays much in contact with her. Weird thing was i told her anytime she needs someone to talk to i'm always here for her
and she liked that but then this happens. She also told me she's proud of me for going to therapy, but i'm going to be quitting
that soon and go back to drinking my sorrows away.

What should i do?