Firstly to Woe-be Gone,

thank you for your kind words and advice, it is so much appreciated. I just want to find myself and give myself to the right girl and with all my heart. thank you so much.

LookingforCalm? no I don't have a EAP in our company...but I know that I am on the right track, and will have to accept there are people who will hurt and lie and cower when actions are required, I just have to keep reminding myself its not me, but her that has the problem. thank you so much!