Good post, thanks for sharing. I can relate to a lot of what you're saying. I spent most of my 20's partying, both undiagnosed and diagnosed. From the outside, my world looks very put-together. Engineering degree, good job, great family, wife, four kids, and a two-story in suburbia.

From the inside it's a different story. I feel wrecked, anxious, and like nothing can help me. I feel doctors are a failure, that meds and therapy aren't the answer. I know I don't always feel this way, but the last few weeks have been pure hell. I can relate to your "losing the path" comment. Even though I have people all around me, this BP creates a very lonely path to walk.

I don't really have any suggestions, other than you can be well-assured you're not alone.