I have had issues with med compliance too, but my therapist and I have been working on it.

Ultimately, whether or not you want to take meds is your decision and no one else can decide that for you, but I think you could benefit from talking to your therapist about these issues you are struggling with. Maybe he/she can help you come up with a plan for when and how you are going to quit meds to make sure you stay safe.

My recommendation is to tell your therapist exactly what you said here. Good luck!