Dear T,

I feel like a huge f_ckup.

I keep f_cking up in all aspects of my life. I actually missed a meeting this morning because the meeting was rescheduled for an earlier time than before. (Normally we have a meeting every morning at 10:30... well, today it was 9:30.) f_ck me.

WTF is wrong with me? I should have updated my calendar! This new meeting time threw me for a loop. And believe me, this meeting is not the only meeting I have missed or shown up late to.

I'm going to see you tomorrow afternoon. *sigh* I'm just not even in the mood to talk about all my f_ckups because that's just going to feed the depression.

Whatever. I can't change the past, but I can try to do better from now on.