I am so sorry for all you went through. Your story is heartbreaking and none of that ever should have happened. It must be so difficult to come to terms with all that transpired and how helpless you must have felt. I hope you find a way to get your power back. I can't relate to what you've been through but I did know a few foster kids growing up who spent time in group homes and the stories they told of their lives and fosters were horrible. I wonder if there might be a support group for such things? I know you are not alone in your experience and perhaps a support group could help? I really don't know, but I do know I'm sorry for what happened to you. (((Gentle hugs)))