It does sound like you're experiencing symptoms of PTSD but only a professional can diagnose you. When memories of my childhood/teenage abuse started being triggered by situations, I would actually throw up along with the feelings of being terrorized again. Smells can trigger it, being touched or approached a certain way. And rage is not uncommon. Please try to see a therapist or doctor. You deserve to the help and you deserve to feel better. Whatever happened to you was not your fault and your reactions now aren't something you're doing on purpose, either. I hope you feel better.