I'm not truly lonely in the classical sense. I read something recently that hit home though....I'm lonely for "my kind" I've got my husband who understands as much as he's capable and more than most can, my mom and my best friend. The world tells you that in order to be a healthy person, you need lots of friends. I've tried but it doesn't work for me. People are too cruel. Even here, I've been socially intentionally ostracized, erroneously called a Hitler sympathizer, verbally abused and called a drug addict. And then they justify their abuse to me and claim I deserve it. Yet I still try and search for my kind. I've searched in some strange places and some more typical places but they don't seem to exsist. My family and friend feel like enough to me but people keep insisting it's not healthy. my friend and family insist it's them and not me. They have theories as to why this keeps happening to me. I just don't understand and might Never. I've ended up with some bad people looking for my kind....I've been hurt badly. Yet, I still search. I get "feelings" about people and used to feel I needed to ignore them but have learned I should instead follow my instincts.

I'm sorry for your loss and your loneliness. I hope you find whatever you are looking for.