I have been less than 3 months on these forums, and I have made many posts and threads relative to this short period. This reflects the fact that I have had no life other than being here. I have spent most of my time on these forums. I have expressed my feelings very plainly. I have told many personal things that I would never share with anyone I know in person. In retrospect, I think I should have kept everything to myself. To be in pain alone with no one knowing. Who cares if I am not living my life? No one. No one can help me, and I felt worse after posting. I am weak to keep my feelings to myself, but posting makes things worse. I read some (explicit and implicit) accusations through others' posts and "Thanks" to others. Call me crazy, it is OK. I am crazy and stupid and naive and don't deserve to be listened to. Sorry to waste everyone's time on my posts. I don't know why you read them to be honest. I am disgusted by myself and by my life and my personality. Please don't comment on this thread. Thanks