No matter where I am, what I am doing (or trying to do), I just don't cut it. I try *so hard* ~ but I can't do it! I feel absolutely hopeless. I am tired of fighting hard, only to find out that my fighting hurt those that I'm being paid to care for. I cannot continue making these big mistakes. I freaking HATE myself. I can't do anything!! What in the hell is wrong with me?? I'm furious with myself!

I'm never going to get anywhere in life.