Yeah. I'm probably being morbid and thinking too negatively here... I"m not talking about some hypothetical deadly disease though.
This health issue is something i have dealt with since I was a kid; it has been pretty much "controlled" up until now but it is sort of inevitable that Eventually it will come back and that could be how it ends.

It would be some sick shiit if I fought this hard to stay alive when my brain was trying too kill me only to be offed by another disease right now!
I suppose karma doesn't work like this anyhow. Idk.