I think I should.. well i KNOW I should. It's just hard I guess, Idk. It's seems like a big change and it scares me. What if there's nothing wrong with me? Then I'll feel like I wasted their time and my money (if i spent some).

Nice, supportive community here... since i don't have anyone to talk to about this, keeping it bottled up gets overwhelming after a while. Talking to a therapist would probably help me stop posting my thoughts online so much.. maybe. It's confusing, I'm kinda trying, and giving up at the same time here.