I wasn't sure where exactly to post this which means it wound up in general.

One of the many things i struggle with at this time of year is accepting holiday gifts. I don't just feel badly when someone presents me with a gift, but I actually get angry. Can anyone relate?

Every year, folks ask what I would like and then fail to honor my wishes. About 5 years ago when I was very mentally ill, I created a credit card debt without realizing what was happening. For years I have been asking for the gift of cash. That's it. There aren't really any material things I need or want or even have the space for.

However, when I tell someone cash I usually get a response about how impersonal cash is or how they would prefer to get me something different. I have tried to explain year after year that cash would mean so much more to me than anything else. Either no one believes me or just chooses not to listen.

If it were up to me I wouldn't get any gifts at all, but since I realize that isn't going to happen I attempt to ask for something that would be really meaningful to me. It just doesn't happen.