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Were I you, I'd go hug him or at least stick out your hand to shake his next time you see him (Christmas?) and then say something conversational like "How's life treating you?" to gauge his response and feelings about you. Do you have any fun/"fond"/sarcastic memories of him at all?

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I didn't hug him, but I sat down across from him and asked, 'hey, how are things?' I received the usual groan I get from him, and then he said 'okay.' I'm not quite convinced this is something personal.

I know what it was like growing up that household, and I believe while I probably have a mental illness for genetic reasons I also believe they surfaced when/how they did because of the way I was raised. It is quite possible my brother deals with some issues himself, but I probably will never know. It was a household of emotional abuse.

As far as fond memories, maybe a few but not many. We are 6 years apart and as children that is a huge difference. I don't recall ever having a bad relationship with him, but I remember just being 2 different kids doing our own thing. Then I was out of the house before he even became a teenager.

I appreciate your thoughtful reply!