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Originally Posted by xRavenx
I am sorry about your loss. 
I do feel lonely a lot. This is something I talk to my therapist about frequently. She says I need to work on filling that loneliness more with things and be okay with alone time, rather than depending on others to fill that hole. I've had a lot of losses (deaths of people important to me, relationships, even things that I can't go back to....) and it's still traumatic for me.
I wake up not feeling I have any direction. It is very hard. Lately, I feel most secure being by myself and not reaching out to others as much since that tends to complicate my life lately. I figure sometimes that others need to reach out to me more since relationships go both ways. Sometimes I feel I put in too much effort, and that exacerbates feelings of loneliness and not having an anchor, in a way. I do need to find more hobbies. I'm a work in progress, but it doesn't take away the pain. |
Thanks for your post! I feel I could have written it myself. In my case I have a lot of "friends" that in German I would rather call "Bekannte", which means People I know but who are not yet my friends. Somehow everybody wants to go out with me but I never manage to open up so it stays superficial and when I am really Feeling bad I don't know who I could turn to.
I can relate very much to what you say about not having any direction. I don't know where my life will go. I am studying a Career in which I don't want to work. I live far away from my Family and even though I love them very much I am still traumatized from a lot of childhood stuff and don't really turn to them either. I learned to Keep Things to myself and put a nice face on.
Also, like you say, often I invest too much and don't get as much back, so I just try to put up with the being alone and not reaching out, but it is hard very often.
@ElsaMars: I am so sorry to hear what has happened to you in Group therapy. People can be so cruel when they are Feeling bad themselves.