Hey T,

Sooo... I'd usually be seeing you now, I guess.
I bought 2 birds as pets. They're really cute. I already love them Since I have them, I've needed less sleep. I'm not as "out of order" as usual, I even wake up without an alarm. So, everything I'm usually experiencing seems to be psychosomatic after all.
The "I want to SH" part is still here. He gets stronger by the minute. Like a kid who doesn't like to be ignored. We'll see if I can keep ignoring it...

Going to university again makes me kind of depressed. All those people, some even older than I am, going home over the weekend to see their parents. EVERY weekend. I see mine every 3 months or so, for 2 hours. Gosh, I wouldn't even have a room to stay if I were to stay over the weekend.
I miss them. I miss the dad I used to have. I also miss old friends. I just remembered a person I once met at the train station. She seemd to know an awful lot about me. My name, that I have a brother, she knew my best friend (at the time), where I went to school, what my favorite book was (and so on). I had no idea who she was. That was really disturbing. It's bothering me now. Can you completly forget a person you seem to have known very well?

Gosh I'm rambling again. I initially only wanted to write that I miss you, but I still don't think that I should come back to see you. Can you just stay on vacation? Then I can act like you abandoned me and don't need to deal with all those feelings.