hi, I am new, I am a 38 yr old woman. I have dreams of goinh into psycholdogy SOMEDAY, my kids r 2 young. I read ur post. I can help u though. You aren't crazy. Well we all are in our own way. I am a survivor of domestic violeve of 14 yrs. I still feel like I'm living it. I have ptsd, bipolar-depression, & some medical issues, but long story short I retain info well, & educate myself. I got what u needed. what you are suffering from is called
sleep-paralysis, google it. Then take it from there. & from my experience. If your therapist isn't helping , it's time to find another one u feel comfortable with and sae with kinda like a friend. good luck