I think they make it a big deal because if you are said to have been hurting yourself whenever you go to a hospital at least from what ive seen. say I was caught cutting and someone saw me I get that lable of selfdestructive or whatever they are calling it nowadays. and now because of that whenever I go to the hospitals either someone is watching me like a babysitter making sure I dont try to do anything self harming. or they will strap you down to the bed.

i have some questions if you dont mind me asking.

your definetly older than i am. no offence i do not have kids. but can i ask where your fear of being dead already or nothings real, where did this come from? how did it originate?