Hey..

Yeah, it`s c-ptsd I think..

Looks like forming an alter that can carry on for you when the initial you crashes is the better way to 'cope'.. thаn.. just cease existing.. although this other one I guess doesn`t have feelings etc... I don`t know how it works exactly..

As to the therapy.. I don`t think it works for me.. I can`t make a relationship with a therapist.. or in such a situation.. that is not from the real life.. I even think talking about all that makes me more harm.. although sometimes I just need to share something.. What helps me is.. being with some real people.... and doing something together.. anyway..

Wish you happy days..