In my never-ending quest to understand my life in terms of my bipolar diagnosis.. I'm now reflecting upon the things I did in my college years while drunk. This post was inspired by the other thread 'Worst things you've done while manic'.

I'm a pretty reserved person for the most part... not 'shy' but .. low profile. However, when in college I was always the one most likely to either embarrass myself or do something stupid or even violent. While I've never been an alcoholic on anything like a daily basis... but when I did drink it was usually too much. I won't get into some of these things but one example is an incident at a party I threw. For some reason we all went out into the nearby woods and at some point and I took off my clothes and started running and howling like a wolf. I eventually stopped somewhere and just slept in the leaf litter. None of my friends did anything like this. Just an example and obviously very embarassing for me the next day. I was always the last one to fall asleep and also the most likely to take off with people I didn't know to keep the party going (when my friends were done). I also did a lot sexual things that don't need to be discussed. Obviously people do things they wouldn't when drunk... but I was always the outlier amongst my college peers both as an undergrad and grad student. The significant thing to me is HOW different I was from sober to drunk.

So I just wonder.. is this typical for bipolar people in general? Or does it only happen when you are technically manic or hypo-manic? This was all so long ago I can't recall if I was manic or not at these times. I remember being depressed in high school and then really amping up in college... but that also seems typical. (My bipolar diagnosis is very recent)