Two appts today -- one with therapist and the other with pdoc. Not looking forward to ether. My mood is just crap right now

I know my therapist wants to talk with me about painful things in the past, but honestly, I don't know if I can handle that right now. I'm too depressed and it's very possible that I will completely break down

But I guess pdoc appt might go okay. We are going to make a medication adjustment. I'm just too unmotivated to go anywehere