I was usually the most sober one in my group and watching out for others who would drink too much or have trouble handling their liquor. If I was in a mood state before drinking, or drinking to curb social anxiety because I had to be around people when I really didn't want to be, I ran into trouble. My answer is a little more complicated than that, but that's pretty much the jist. My ex husband is the violent type of bipolar, and alcohol really did a number on him. My son seems to have that same issue. 99 times out of 100, I drank with zero consequences......the other times I choose not to talk about. Drinking while being in an upswing leads me to where you would imagine doing such a thing would lead. Drinking during a downswing followed that same rule.