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Originally Posted by sinking
Today talking with my T i realized with tears in my eyes that i am old. i know everything is relative but i look at myself from the outside and i see a pathetic 35 years old "girl" (cant look at myself as WOMAN) with no job, no friends and no boyfriend - let alone a husband with kids.
i know i am me and i had it harder than other people and its no surprise i was left behind by other people of my age but its not just about the comparison with others, its.... ME having nothing, not sure i want something, and my age.
i suddenly felt too old to still fight for a life, my life...
i hate life, my life, myself.
how many times did i say that already? too many to count. and these are not just words. i really want to give in. too old to live my life. 
sorry this is long. thanks for reading. |
I hope you keep going and find something that inspires you. Wether that be exercising, doing a marathon or playing group sports.
You are not as 'old' as you think! There are many professional sports people far older than you are. I know it's easy to think like this, but you are and always will be just as worthy with or without the self-criticism.
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