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Originally Posted by Im.Still.Breathing
I think they make it a big deal because if you are said to have been hurting yourself whenever you go to a hospital at least from what ive seen. say I was caught cutting and someone saw me I get that lable of selfdestructive or whatever they are calling it nowadays. and now because of that whenever I go to the hospitals either someone is watching me like a babysitter making sure I dont try to do anything self harming. or they will strap you down to the bed.
i have some questions if you dont mind me asking.
your definetly older than i am. no offence i do not have kids. but can i ask where your fear of being dead already or nothings real, where did this come from? how did it originate?
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That is a good question and I have no answers. It is not a fear of dying, not really. I am conflicted on the subject. I am genuinely surprised when I wake up every day. I have no reason for most of my issues. A few physical issues have reasons but those reasons have no cause. For instance, I have a damaged shoulder that hurts every day that was caused by a seizure 22 years ago, but the seizure has no cause. I have no trauma in my past to explain my mental illness, nothing wrong with my brain scans or blood work, etc.
I simply suck.
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PDD with Psychotic Features, GAD, Cluster C personality traits - No meds, except a weekly ketamine infusion