I know you said not to comment. I won't comment on you, but I want to say I feel vulnerable posting my thoughts and feelings to the forums. Rereading things I write, getting judged, accidentally hurting others...I haven't been sure of its benefits. It's anonymous, so that helps; but, it's a record of things I'd love to forget...or to not be a part of me. These forums are part confession, commiseration, camaraderie... At times I've cried, sweated, freaked out about my posts, and felt encouraged and hopefully encouraged others a time or two. Exposing myself to myself and others on the forums expands my comfort zone. I've probably been timid, but less timid than lurkers. I've gotten triggered sometimes and come out swinging. I still don't know why I come to these forums...but I know my participation has opened up parts if me I'd rather keep shut. However, my goal is to make peace with myself...all of me.
Sorry to post this on your thread, mr stranger. But reading your post brought this out for me.