You have your therapy appointment tomorrow, IIRC, so I hope your new T will be able to help you understand why you're having so much trouble respecting your ex-T's request that you stop contacting him. This is not a good road to go down, and you know that. If he gets a restraining order and you violate it, you may get arrested. Talk this all over with your new T, hopefully he will have ideas about how to cope when you get this urge.