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Originally Posted by hopealwayz
I stopped by his office on the way home to ask him for an appointment and then when I got home, I told him that I still wanted him as a psychiatrist so when he said that i would never be his patient again, I asked him if everything he ever told me was a lie. Then I said that he wouldn't care if I died. That's when I got that email. Then I started thinking about suicide.
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I think you tend to overreact, which leads you to create images in your head about extreme scenarios that have a 0.000001% chance of happening.
While I can't make you stop thinking about the worst possible scenarios, I
do believe you have the power to think about realistic and best-possible scenarios.
Maybe it would help you to write down your feelings about your previous psychiatrist and share that letter with your current therapist. Say
exactly why you think he lied to you and say
exactly why he wouldn't care if you died. Also say
exactly how he hurt you. Then write down how he has
helped you, because I'm willing to bet he has helped you
at least once. I mean, you did say you wanted to be his client again, so I can imagine there was something about him that you really liked.
When I wrote a letter to my therapist last Tuesday, I wrote some stuff about past situations and how I thought people reacted to me. When I started writing this all down, I realized that some of my logic didn't make much sense. My logic was too influenced by emotion and not by hard facts. Maybe that's not the case for you, but I think writing things down will help you logic your way through this.