Dear M,

Thank you so much for yesterday... giving me the space to express myself completely and honestly... I'd been secretly upset with you for so long that I forgot what it was like to just be happy that you exist in my life.

I had no back or hand pain today for the first time in months, too-- I just realized I got through all my lessons and rehearsals with no painkillers! I'll tell you that next week, but you'll laugh like always and ask if I was truly not expecting that outcome, because you and L both know my pain goes away every time I allow myself to express anger, and comes back the moment I repress it.