I am a young man and still at a university.

I don't even really know how to say this type of things.

I was borne prematurely and had several endocrine problems.

I can barely remember being taken to lots of doctors at my earliest memories.

Hear goes, my penis is medically considered micro along with (I think) hypogonadism...my testicles did not descend and never grew much even though surgery put them in my scrotum.

Delayed puberty and needed some hormone injection to start puberty at 15.

I was brought up in a foster household both the man and his wife would rip off my shorts and literally spank the ***** out of me, anywhere, anytime, regardless if other family members were present, guests, or even strangers for a while.

Today I am a hetero-masculine man, feel very comfortable in my masculinity, my body is really athletic and lean but muscular because I started lifting weight to be better in sports at age 17.

I feel hypersexual most of the time.

I have been told I am gl by both girls and guys.
Complimented by many for my humor, wit, intelligence.

But ever time I want to become more than friends with a girl, or a girl wants to intimate .....all these memories blast my head, and I back away.

will this last forever? Or will I outgrow this... Too many questions...

IDK anymore