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Originally Posted by peaches100
Going from seeming like I am just fine to suddenly erupting into intense, traumatic, scary crying jags where I feel terror and am crying so hard I can't breathe. Also during which I can't respond to anybody who tries to talk to me or ask a question, and I can't pull myself out of it or explain to others what exactly is happening to me.
If you are in therapy, how many total years have you been in therapy?
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This has been happening to me recently. It's new. Her name is Alice she doesn't talk she just thinks I think. I've never heard her voice out loud she's selectively mute maybe. My boyfriend is her trigger. Not always but the three times she's been out it's been around him or the thought of him coming home once brought her out. I don't know how old Alice is I just know that she can read. But she refuses to write anything or speak. My boyfriend is a really good understanding patient guy. So I can only guess that he reminds Alice of someone who's hurt us. She's younger than 8. Older than 5. She feels like more of an emotional memory. When she gets you far scared I can't reach her at all. I can't calm her. I'm trying my hardest to learn to switch fluidly with purpose to give each alter time to roam but it's proving difficult and exhausting. I've fainted once fighting so hard to gain control. That was when my boyfriend met Alice. 😧 I'm rambling sorry.
I have six alters
Q: do you have a favorite alter and why?