Are you guys being honest with your p and t?

It is hard for me to open up to anybody for real and as I haven't had any real feeling recently it is even harder because I don't even know what I feel.

Anyway I try to tell them the stuff I do but sometimes I am just ashamed and I kind of play things down sometimes because I don't want to be that person. Mainly about drinking, drugs and hypersexuality and also about panic attacks and obsessing. I don't lie a lot, but sometimes I do because I don't want to see their faces.

I know they have probably seen worse than me but still, I just want to be a good person and don't lose all my pride.