Last night was a disaster. I was highly suicidal and the nurses didn't take me seriously, or take the time to talk to me. Finally, I lost it and began screaming about how I was going to run away and kill myself. I begged them to call my doctor but after half an hour they hadn't. I was beyond ropable by then. They gave me the meds I explained gave me akesthesia despite my protests. My parents came up to be with me and keep me safe. They shouldn't have too but needed support. I slept a fit full sleep and woke depressed.

Tonight I saw my doctor who had no idea what had happened. He was furious he was not informed about my state of mind. He changed a few meds and hopefully things will get better from here.He is going to check on me tomorrow. I am still suicidal tonight but comforted by the chat with my doctor. At least someone listened to me. Just have to get through tonight and hopefully wake feeling ok so I can go to university and give a presentation. If i can't i can put if off for medical reasons.