I've been battling OCD since I was a small child. My obsessions manifest differently depending on what stage of life I'm in. Right now I'm 24 and getting ready to buy my first house with my boyfriend. The problem is: I am SO CONVINCED he is going to snap and hate me. I constantly check my phone for text messages. If there's none, I think he's angry. If there ARE texts from him, I interpret them as attacking or frustrated. When he comes home I dote over him and offer to make him food, get him drinks, start up his video games and ask how he's feeling multiple times. This kind of freaks him out as he hates being doted over.
He's not abusive and far from an angry person. He's been a bit more miserable as he suffers from depression, but I immediately think it's because of me, or something I did, or he hates me.
Does anyone else get obsessive over loved ones? I know it's common to worry about a person dying, which I've gone through as well, but this seems very emotionally charged, mixed with OCD. Or is it a personality thing?
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